I’ve been counting our SAH days in my journal and today is Day 113. whoa. As a point of reference, I noted these “new prayers” in my prayer journal nearly 120 days ago “COVID-19. early March. starting to get serious. 19 dead in US” … and right below “March 12 … shut downs/cancellations becoming widespread. feels like the country shifted dramatically in a 12-hour period…”
And in the intervening days, weeks, and months, we’ve seen so many more shifts. For much of this time, I’ve felt like I was just reacting … to the (never good) news, the ever-evolving expert advice, and then the social changes … and I was always playing catchup. Especially beginning mid-May, when I’d unplug for two days each week to be a (mostly) full-time Marmie. Don’t get me wrong – I don’t regret a second of that time, but I’m so not a reacting/catch-up kind of person.
On Wednesday – Hello July! – I restarted Three Things (if you followed my Instagram stories in May, you saw this EVERY day – here’s the link to Elise’s highlight about it) and journaled a list of things I want to (need to – yeah, taxes is on the list. ugh) do this month.
and then – playing catch-up! – I re-read a devotion written by one of our pastors* in early June. talking about stories. She wrote about how the disciples initially didn’t believe Mary Magdalene when she told them about Jesus’ resurrection because “The story she told didn’t fit into their framework and their grief, the narrative they understood about life and death.” She closed with this:
“What story are you telling? How are you making sense of all that is going on in the world right now and your role in it? Does your narrative leave space to encounter the experiences of those who don’t look like you or think like you? May we all strive to make room in our narratives for those stories that disrupt and complicate our frameworks, allowing us to grasp more of the complexity of what it means to be human and compelling us to work for a more just world.”
Stories. that last sentence about making room in my own narrative, grasping the complexity, and then being compelled to work. She challenged me.
and then I read – happily not in catch up mode – Elise‘s July 1 newsletter. She talked about stories, too. about re-writing our own stories. about how that’s a way we can make real change happen in our lives. She suggested reading someone else’s story, finding a partner to share/write a new story with, and “fake it until you make it” (basically JUST DO IT until it it becomes the story).
and so, with all of that, July, I want you to help me tell a new story. about myself. about these SAH days. I want the story to be full of intention. thoughtful response. connection. growth. committed finishes and planful starts with my me-makes. learning. and sometimes, simply showing up. on time!
Let’s do it!!
p.s. I also want to experience Hamilton.
*and y’all that pastor isn’t even 30 years old. yes, she’s a blessing, and yes, I LOVE my church!